August 2nd and 3rd, 2021 –
I have this dream on the 2nd that I honestly think is fairly boring. I’m in this far out fictional Youngstown that seems to sort of be glitching in and out of reality. For some reason going downtown occurs to me but I have no idea why. I’m just like: I haven’t been to fictional downtown Youngstown in a while, so why not? As I’m riding there on the bus I realize I have no real reason to be there and no idea why I decided to come in the first place.
I’m going to go right back home but now the reality glitching gets further and further out of control. Because of that I get off the bus too late and have to find my way back to where I can catch another one. I can sometimes see things, then it’s completely dark and I can only feel them. I try my phone but nothing. I keep trying to look for bus stops with posted routes by everything keeps blipping out and changing slightly.
Eventually I run into this friend and I try to follow him on this bus, but it starts taking me even farther away so I immediately get off. I’m now totally disoriented and trying to climb my way up this densely populated hill while everything’s pitch black. Nothing feels right at all.
I get up and go about my morning kind of disappointed with the thing truthfully as it was boring and a tad distressing all at the same time. But the only reason I’m telling this story is that I got a response. I sort of internally broadcast that I thought I had a lame vision, and they clarified the intent.
First I go into my pre-work morning meditation and I’m given this lesson plan regarding what all the various metaphors in the dream were supposed to represent…but I do not remember any of this at all, I just remember that it happened in some liminal state. So that didn’t work, but then the next night I have a long dream fleshing it out with far more narrative clarity.
Navigation. That’s basically what your world is, it’s what happens when we intentionally disable your internal navigational systems. You’re supposed to be connected to your guardian entities and the larger macro reality to help you make your way through your karmic progressions, but we just wanted to see what would happen if we completely shut that shit off. It’s like y’all are playing a huge open world game without ever seeing an ad or promo for the thing and with zero hints as to what the game is even supposed to be about or how any of the controls or features work. No tutorials, no pause menus. Nothing.
All for experimental purposes as well as simple shits and giggles. The unpleasantness and boredom I felt in the initial dream was purely intentional and a communication unto itself. I’m told that most students pretty much hate it. What I find most fascinating is the level of dialogue afoot. I didn’t understand the dream nor enjoy it and internally expressed as much and so “they” then explained it to me further as if to justify “their” awkwardness.
This gets increasingly interesting as in the following weeks I now recognized the confusion level associated with this “navigation systems disabled” dream state and was able to use it as a lucidity trigger on multiple occasions. Yet another recurring theme in my dreams that had been repeating for God only knows how long before finally being deciphered, and that’d be the thing. I didn’t decipher it, it was straight up explained to me after I offered a complaint about its lack of entertainment value (as established, it does kind of suck). I actually came to realize that I’m often picking up on other people’s plotlines empathetically, all with the same feeling of profound disorientation. We’re all tied to an astral psi grid after all. Weird times.
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